Meandering through my mind.

Things that have been engrained in me in the last week.

Other people's choices, wants, and needs have to be put above your own. I know this seems sooo the moral/Christian thing, but it does not come naturally. This past week I've felt hurt over a situation beyond my control, and yet I let it stew all week complaining about it, and realized today how selfish it was of me to feel like my needs and wants were more important then theirs. The sting is still there, but I'm trying my best to let it go and let God handle the feelings part.

Friendships take effort and lots of it. I'm sucky at it. Honestly. I got lucky growing up that anyone wanted anything to do with me, and when we moved to North Ga, and I had to start over with new people, it was eye opening. I can't just text people and hope that keeps the relationship alive. I have to meet people where they are and engaging them(by TALKING to them/visiting with them in person). You have to make and carve out time. Or it won't happen. Its a two way street that requires both people making an effort.

And no, those two didn't go hand in hand. ;)

My family is awesome. Both sides of my family. I seriously don't know what we would do without them. I already knew this, but I just have moments where it wells up and the thankfulness is overwhelming.  Luke and I spent all weekend getting to enjoy time by ourselves thanks to Luke's parents since they watched the kids, and then spent all day with my family and were loved on. Luke and I have had a rough go the last couple of years, specially this past year..but its moments like this weekend that we are left feeling a little less weight on us.

I adore my husband. Seriously. After spending 10 years with the guy, he is seriously my best friend and my rock. He is constantly pointing me to Jesus(even when it frustrates me cause I just want to be angry/sad..etc.) and genuinely loves me, flaws and all. He lets Christ love me through him and I am taken aback by how blessed I really am. We are in this. For the long haul....we have promised that we don't get to give up, or settle in our relationship. There is always room for improvement and I'm thankful he is worth fighting with and for. :)

Proverbs 31 woman.

I try and remember that this woman probably did not start out this way. That the life she lives is merely a reflection of the life of Christ in her, brought about by being in The refiners fire many times.

I like to imagine she has days where she'd rather not wake before the sun and burn the candle late at night, or find and weave material into linens and clothing but she does because it is the joy set before her.

I imagine that she fears nothing not because she was financially stable but because she trusted in The One who provides.

I imagine that her husband and children call her blessed because they recognize the work of Christ in her and know that THAT is a blessing.


I'm currently in a season of life of really and truly having to go to the cross by the minute. Its humbling, but I know that in this, I will learn how to have and find joy in the minute by minute moments of my life.

Catch up

Luke got a new job.  About 2 months ago He applied for a job I found on Monster.com and he interviewed, they said they hired someone else, and we dropped it. They called him back about 2 weeks later and said they wanted him after all..(they kept the other guy too..just made a place for Luke)..so he is back in doing what he loves and is super good at. Drafting. It's not a pay raise, but the hours are better, they pay overtime, and have benefits we can opt into when we can afford it(high amount taken out.)..

The kids are out of school now, trying to get used to having them home all the time. Don't get me wrong, I love it, but its a different feel then just having them home in the afternoons and nights. I'm constantly on my toes trying to find things to do..haha..thankfully we are enjoying daily walks, swimming at the neighborhood pool and making cleaning the house fun. ;)

Micah turned 1, I can't believe it. My last sweet baby is trying to grow up, can someone stop him? He is so so sweet and slightly demanding. I blame it on him being 4th and having people just give him what he wants..;)  I am very content in being done, but also kinda sad this phase is ending. I have felt for a long time that I feel that I can raise babies great...like after having 4, I got this baby phase stuff down...so it's hard to embrace having to let go of the one part of parenting I felt I had a handle on..raising older kids is so very rewarding and beautiful as you watch them become people and start learning about life and Christ, but its full of its own share of challenges which I feel I have no idea what I'm doing. Definitely keeping me leaning on The Lord and doing lots of apologizing when I mess up. 

Kate just turned 4. It blows my mind that this fall we will start some pre-k work and next year she'll be in kindergarten! 

I lost my iPhone this week. Not great timing...(as if it ever is). But I rely heavily on mine for everything. I take most of my pictures and videos on it, do all my list making and workout log on there...lost it somewhere in Target and pretty sure someone has stolen it as it was turned off within minutes of me losing it(and my battery was fine when I went in). No one had turned it in either..the phone I could probably live without, but all my photos and videos on there are what I'm grieving most. I had a couple I hadn't uploaded yet. Like Micah's birthday cake smashing and him opening presents..all things I can't get back.  Makes me thankful for all the pictures I HAVE uploaded to Facebook! :)

Our horrible renters have finally moved out, but they didn't notify us of some water damage to the ceiling in the kitchen, so we will have to fix that before being able to get someone else in. Hoping its just sheet rock and not framing..but we will need to find the source so it doesn't keep happening. We also have to hound our prior renters to get the $3,000+ they owe us. Ugh.

So yep, that basically catches us up!

When it all doesn't go as you want.

The other day Olivia was complaining that we couldn't do something and I was reminded of a story I read once-

An old farmer who had worked his crops for many years. One day his horse ran away. Upon hearing the news, his neighbors came to visit. "Such bad luck," they said sympathetically. "May be," the farmer replied. The next morning the horse returned, bringing with it three other wild horses. "How wonderful," the neighbors exclaimed. "May be," replied the old man. The following day, his son tried to ride one of the untamed horses, was thrown, and broke his leg. The neighbors again came to offer their sympathy on his misfortune. "May be," answered the farmer. The day after, military officials came to the village to draft young men into the army. Seeing that the son's leg was broken, they passed him by. The neighbors congratulated the farmer on how well things had turned out. "may be," said the farmer.

Technically the story could keep going and I believe that when good things happen, you should rejoice, because as a believer, I believe all good things come from Him, that being said....I told her about this story and as I reflected on it while relaying it to her, I was struck with the fact that this is something I really struggle with. I am so quick to judge a day, letting one bad event spoil the whole day. But I cannot see the big picture.

Today, Luke didn't get a job we were very much hoping for. I didn't realize how badly I had wanted him to get it till it was gone. It would have meant, more pay, less hours, a desk job close to home and insurance. But again, I was reminded about this. It would be SO easy for me to call this a bad day and judge it. To say there was no good in it and how could God allowed us not to get such a good job? But I have to believe that perhaps we were spared something, maybe there is something better, or perhaps it just wasn't the time for him to go there. Maybe they will hire this other person, have it not work out and hire Luke, or find a different position for him...? I'm thankful my Lord sees the bigger picture and I can rest that the ebb and flow of our "good" days  and "bad" days are still full of Him because He is in me and all around me.

I have a new blog!

One specifically to me doing reviews on products that as a Mom I've tried..Services I've tried and stuff like that.  So if that interests you or you know people it would, go on over!

http://momtestedandapproved.blogspot.com/

We moved.

So a lot of stuff has gone down since I last posted. We have moved! For months now a friend of ours has been offering his house to us so we could live there for free and be able to save some money and hopefully get back on our feet after having so many bad things happen to our finances over the last few years. We had been turning him down just because of logistics of moving again and everything that goes along with that, and just not wanting to burden someone with a family of 6!

However, the people who rent out our house in Stone Mountain, have basically stopped paying us except for a little here and there and we were at wits end trying to decide how to make it work. Luke's job is here now and we cannot move away that far to move back in, so we prayerfully and with much heavy thought decided to take our sweet friend up on his offer. So here we are, almost a month later and still having renter issues that are slowing down our "getting back on our feet",  but its way better then having to pay a mortgage AND rent on top of it. We are so so thankful and it was more God then anything I've seen in a while. My head cannot wrap around the generosity of being able to stay here without rent.

Now if we can just get our current renters out soon and someone who can actually pay back in, we will be able to pay off some debt and maybe even start saving some during our time here. Imagine that! Having savings..:)

However, I will say this is not a long term thing..we know probably a year and a half, but a lot can happen in a year and and a half so we are just trusting the Lord. I did add up though how many times Luke and I have moved since getting married and we have moved 7 times in almost 10 years. That my friends is a lot of moving. I am thankful for each step in our lives but I will be more then pleased to finally find a house at some point and settle down for at least a few years! haha..

Olivia is turned 8 in January, Noah is 2 days shy of being 6 and littlest ones will be 4 and 1 in May. I cannot believe it. We are celebrating Noah with a family party and pizza the following weekend, but on his actual birthday he asked for a low country boil with extra shrimp and a pet fish. Easy to please, that kid. :)

Citrus Lane January 2013 Box review..

I ended up getting two of the same box due to a whoopsie on the order side of things, but thats ok, I don't mind having two of everything. Also, just to clarify in case you missed my last post, Citrus Lane is a monthly subscription box, a surprise box designed around your child's age and gender and usually a mama product thrown in. Its very fun to get these! You can sign up for monthly boxes, or sign up for 3,6, or 12 month subscriptions. More info at the bottom of post..

Here's how it looked..:)

First item- 1 oz. bottle of Clean Well Disinfectant Spray. Cleans all botanically..Excited about throwing these in my diaperbag for things like cleaning potty seats.(Retails for $9.96)

Bear In A Square book..the kids LOVE books and this one is nice and sturdy and I know it will hold up to Micah messing with it. (Retails for $6.99)

Full size Episencial's Soothing Cream(4 oz. retails for $10.99) and a sample of their Playful Wash. All my kids have mild eczema and I am very excited about trying this out on their skin after baths to hopefully sooth it. (It also came with a discount code for their site.)

A Ella's Kitchen food pouch. These are very cool and with my screw on spoon for this type of baby food pouch, it makes a great travel food. Plus Ella's kitchen has awesome organic food that I feel good about feeding my little guy.

This is the only item I'm kind of bummed at having two of, just cause I got the same animal. But I do love the product so there's that! Its a Skip Hop insulated lunch box and super cute, and very well made. In their Monkey model. Will have to take more picnics during the summer to enjoy these! (Retails for $13.)

There you have it! A pretty good box!!

If you want to sign up, please use my referral link because then you get $10 off your first order and I get $10's too...so a win win! Plus, I just used a code that got me 7.50 off my next sign up..BREAK10. Enter that during the sign up process in the promo code box).

Linky!
https://www.citruslane.com/invitedby/Kayla.Fletcher

Disclosure. I was not paid to review this or even supplied with these items. I bought these myself and the opinions there in are my own.